When others vent, I feel like my own personal struggles aren't as bad. They are probably are less significant. Regardless.. I desperately need to let it out somewhere. I feel like I am going crazy, ever since I started school, my derealization has gotten bad BAD. I'm talking where I would randomly pinch myself once I realise I am blinking and real. I become so self aware it makes me feel ill. I complained to my friends about it but I don't want to constantly rant to them. I think it has something to do with me and my religious issues. I've been second guessing my belief, felt religious guilt all before this. Now, in November, I physically feel numb from everything. My hobbies bore me, I can't motivation find a show or something to "comfort me" or I can obsess over. I also feel emotions but don't at the same time..? Everyone in my circle start to piss me off too </3 I worry things might become bad like last year too. Idk anymore man.