there is this one dude that i liked after a very long time in my life, i usually dont have feelings for anyone easily because actually i dont know its just that being 21 now and having spent so much of time with myself learning and unlearning, i have come to realise I don't have a permanent interest in anything or anyone. It just stops and idek why that happens. alr alr i will go back to why i am actually pissed. its not only abt that dude, but also my stay at home now. its been exactly 9 days since i came back to my native and staying with my parents, i have been in hostels since class 6 and i recently completed my undergrads. idk why was i born into this family, there is so much happening everywhere. i dont get to breath even though i am literally alone in my room right now, heck idek if i can call this my room cuz apparently the HOUSE ( not HOME ) i have been staying in since i was born, WE DO NOT HAVE THE PROPERTY RIGHTS TO IT, AND EVEN IF WE DO MY MOM DOESNT KNOW WHO REALLY HAS IT