My mom renewed her house so she's staying in Missouri for another year and I'm sure it's going to be the same thing next year too. I realize that I'm truly by myself and yeah I'm glad don't get me wrong I do not have a good relationship with my family at all but I'm the only one left and if something happens Its going to take 12-15 hours for them to get to me. But it's always oh we can come get you, you can live with us but I grew up moving so much and I don't want to move bc I have sm roots here and I'm happy. But holy fuck the pressure at my job isn't helping bc it's such a dog eat dog world and everyone is so quick to put you down + get you in trouble and my GM is such a asshole and have been on my ass since January and CONSTANTLY has been putting me down regardless of what efforts I give to this job. I'm so fucking depressed and suicidal and just alone an idk what to do. I have friends and I adore them sm but idk how much more I can take and I'm thinking about getting another job.