I miss my past self. Back then, I took some things for granted, like not having depressing thoughts every few minutes or actually looking forward to the future. Now I can't even imagine a future for myself. I used to be actually excited to go to school to see my friends, but now I'm just exhausted, and all my friends are fake anyway, so what's the point? But at least I'm not upset like I was in middle school when my friends excluded me, etc.