why am i not good enough to change for? you acknowledged you treat me bad and that i deserve better but you won't do better. it's always somehow my fault and you make sure i know that even though i have been begging for months for you to listen to me and understand me and to just THINK. i did everything for you. i changed so much of myself to grow with you, but you haven't grown at all. you are not the good person you think you are and pretend to be and you never have been. i have no idea how your kind and empathetic mother raised such a fucking selfish inconsiderate egotistical ignorant kid. but sure go ahead and tell everyone that i'm crazy and i'm the problem and i'm manipulative like you haven't been emotionally abusing me for most of our relationship. and i'm so mad at myself for being sad about losing you, that i finally came to terms with needing to break up. because i don't miss you. i am grieving the way we used to be, if that was ever even real. fuck you.