All of the people I know are through my finance and his family. I have not been able to make friends on my own and the last friend I had I have invited five times this year and she says she cant, then last year for my birthday she didn't come to my birthday because she was depressed and this year it was more understandable because she needed surgery for kidney stones but she didn't invite me anywhere after and im actually the one that cooked for her and her partner twice after my birthday. Im not reaching out to her anymore. Or anybody. Im okay with being alone now.