01/11/26 I can't help but feel like I'm a bit of a burden, a bit too much for everyone. I feel like I talk too much, express too much, say too much, take in too much attention, but when I try to quiet down, I get pushed around, I get yelled at, I get talked over. I don't want to be a burden for the people I care about, especially my friends, but I can't help but feel like they'd be better off without me around, or that they might be avoiding me. I keep treading on thin ice around them because I feel like if I say or do something wrong, I'll lose them all at once, even when the logical part of my mind says that they'd never judge me like that. I've felt like this a lot, I've never had a place to actually say stuff on my mind like this until today.