My (?) family in this life sucks. I HATE THEM. Does that make me a bad person? I feel guilty for writing this but I feel so much hate and distance when I think about them right now. I hate the narcissistic, alcoholic cheating shit of a “dad” who I haven’t spoken to in almost 10 years. I hate the mother who’s so anxious and lets bad things fill her head, keeps telling me bad news like today she told me my grandad is gambling which made me feel scared that I won’t be able to finish college without his financial help, can’t defend herself and lets the sister step over her like a doormat, doesn’t even try to take initiative with her life when she has SO MUCH potential in baking and design and marketing. Honestly, what the fuck? I just want parents who are good role models :( I hate that I’m the way I am now because I didn’t have anyone to look up to It hurts when I think of my friends who have parents who are doing well and still together. I wish I was born in a different life