I fucking hate my family. I don't want to feel that way. I hate that I feel angry. That every day it makes me more like the person who hurt me. Hurt people hurt people. But I dont want to end up like him. Every time I try to not be like him, I always become closer to being the same. And they just CAN'T. SHUT. THE. FUCK. UP. I'M ALREADY SAD AND PISSED OFF THAT YOU SLAPPED ME ON HALLOWEEN OF ALL DAYS, FOR "BEING BLIND" WHEN I COULDN'T KEEP MY SISTER STILL FOR YOUR STUPID PICTURE! And now I'm crying. But if I ever told you how much I feel, you'd send me away or even worse, call CPS. And it would ruin my future. I can't get help, can't trust you, can't risk my future. And yet you expect me to be happy. To be the Gifted and Talented student you always need me to be. It hurts so bad. It hurts so fucking bad. I'm tired mom. I've been tired.