I love when I'm blamed for everything My brother's literally ripping my hair out. I kick him in the head, not even on purpose but he just moved at the wrong time. It's all my fault! He's four years younger than me! I'm supposed to be more mature! All I've ever been able to be is mature. My friends ask me why I don't goof around and stuff like all the other kids my age. I had to grow up before I turned probably 8ish because my parents act like children. My mom smacked my dad in the head a few times, he broke her windshield with his fist, she left him an hour away from home for his parents to pick him up, he's an alcoholic and smokes AND vapes, she's currently unemployed and living in our grandparents house, he only sees us on weekends if my mom says so... I hate my life, but my pain tolerance is nothing and I cannot bring myself to sh or jump... I hate this. I hate myself so much. I researched colleges for when I go, which is probably in 2033, but I won't even live long enough...