this might b a stupider thing to vent considering the other stuff i’ve vented in the past, anyways, halloween is one of my favorite holidays. when it’s halloween, usually i go with friends cause it’s not fun if i stay home all day on my fav day doing nothing and being lonely, but this year ig i’m not going out or anything cause all my friends canceled, like i’ve been having a shitty month that made me rethink my entire life and sob over it, trying to convince myself that maybe halloween would make me feel better cause i’ll get to hang out with people. i’ve been preparing so much (couldnt even get the costume i wanted) and it’s last minute i find out i can’t even go. like i think i say this a lot but i get so much fomo because people my age are doing so much and having fun and i’m not, like i just wanna experience being a high schooler as much as other people do, esp cause yk i’m a adult soon, theres nowhere for me to go if i don’t have anyone to share it with so what’s the point