I'm just to tired. My second year in high school has been the most draining school year I have had, even though everyone around me said that its the best one. I stay awake in the night thinking about everything that causes me stress and during the day I sleep, even on lesson but thats not enough. My mom also being a single mother with me and my brother doesn't help, seeing her struggle with choosing if we pay the bills or buy food for us. I have thought about killing myself just so my mom wouldn't have to worry about using money on me, I thought about doing it in the end of summer so I wouldn't have to go back to school and have my final exams, but I can't do that.. not after all of what she has done for me. My problems make me feel selfish, knowing that there are other people with way harder life than I have and who want to live while they can't. And here I am a sad pathetic 17 year old who doesn't want to be selfish but also doesn't have the energy to go on.