Tried to sh myself. Scratch at my skin. I barely could do any of it. I tried to sh cuz i felt disgusting and bad for masterbating again. Would this just stop if I genuinely got fucked by someone? Or would this genuinely stop if I got in a relationship with someone who loves me. Been trying to find something. But i have no goals, friendships, or a relationship. I have nothing to really fill this void of sadness and loneliness