I don’t know who’s going to see this and feel anything. And I hate describing how I feel because I can’t do it without feeling like I sound stupid. I just feel… hollow? I just don’t find any enjoyment in anything. I haven’t for a while. I just want to lie in bed and cry every day. I’m not even sure about what. I just don’t want to be here sometimes. I hate school, I hate my family. Sometimes, I hate being in my relationship. I feel so goddamn miserable. My own skin feels uncomfortable. Like I want to rub my skin until it’s raw and numb. I feel so much resentment towards everything. I want to be anywhere but here. I just want to feel happy. Everything makes me feel stupid and useless. I want to crawl into a hole and bury my head in damp gravel and dirt until the earth swallows me whole. I hate this feeling. I don’t want to be here. I don’t know how to help myself.