im genuinely just.. so tired of everything. i feel like and dirty and like im ugly and my mom isnt making me feel better and usually going online makes me feel better but like.. idk it js makes me feel awkward kinda and my mom isnt making ANYTHING better because she got mad at me for NI REASON. And she says “Omgg i dont like how ur hanging out with gay people!!” like i get she may be trying to look after my best interests or smth but.. she just is so tiring. i hate everything about myself except my friends and online identity. but my mom hates those. and whenever i vent by typing into the notes app she reads everything on my phone so i just.. wanna get rid of it somewhere. ya know? sorry for making you read about it. and ik im actually being so picky me bc i have an amazing life. me and my family are middle class, we always have good dinner, im in the gifted classes, and i have a good education. but i also feel so dumb sometimes.. but idk ig..