I know college is a big leap for everyone, but its toll on me is so incredibly huge; more than I initially thought and I don’t know who to confide in. As I’m writing this, I’m sitting on the floor of a gender-neutral bathroom. I have people here, yet I feel alone constantly. I don’t know why. I miss when times were simpler. I understand it’s adulthood, but this change is so much bigger than I thought. I feel as though I’m losing everyone I once knew. I decided to commute next semester, sometimes I think if it was the right choice or not. When I think these thoughts, I like to escape to a reality that doesn’t exist but I wish it did. I wish I was different, I wish I didn’t care. I’m sorry if this all doesn’t make sense to anybody, it doesn’t to me either.