Every day is the same darkness, same silence, same ache, same numbness. I miss the warm and safe hug she gave me. I wished it lasted longer. I’m so tired. I wish she was here right now to hold me. I can’t do this anymore. 4 days till I see her again. Feels like centuries long. Yet another day passes and I forget everything. Please. I hate this dark yet I love it. I’m so done with this battle.