I fucking hate him. I mean i love him but at this point I hate that I love him. I don't want to feel like I need him anymore. He wont tell me why he's mad or say hi anymore or acknowledge my existence and he's and always on his stupid phone. I want to smash his phone into the wall. I want him to see me. I miss him. I'm tired. Im so so tired. I don't wanna guess what I did wrong. I know i'm a shitty horrible person and I want to improve. I wish he would let me. I want to ram my head into a wall or punch him. We used to talk everyday. I miss him. I wish I didn't feel like this. I feel so stupid. Maybe I should just end things with him now before any more damage is done. But i'm scared he'll try to kill himself. I guess it wouldn't be my problem then but I don't want to see him hurt. I feel so useless and trapped.