Rant #31293

i bottle up stress so bad to the point where i hit myself when i get mad or when i cant handle something i would beat my self up saying im useless and and unwanted and i cant talk to anyone or else i'll be put in a mental hospital and i want to end myself but if i do im worried that no one would care and that no one would find meand i dougt that they would anyways and i wish everything would go back to normal