I kind of feel like i’m doomed for the future because I’m so scared of living the life that society expects of me. Being a parent horrifies me, getting a job horrifies me, living in this current economy which is only getting worse terrifies me and there is no way for me to get out of it other than to die. There are so many huge issues in the world and mine feel so small beside them but they eat up every single hour of my day where i think i can be fine. I don’t know who i am or who i want to be, but i also don’t know how to change if i ever realised who i really am, because i don’t think it’s who i am now. I feel like my life is centred around other people’s expectations and what they want me to do rather than what i want to do. Sometimes i feel like im not even real, that everything is set up to make me think that im real, but everyone is collectively playing a trick on me just for their own entertainment, and they all know that im not like the rest of them and hate me for it. Idk bro