I hate myself. Hate that I can't be fit without killing my body. I'm trying to catch up to my peers but I seem to always fall behind. Maybe thats just because I am cutting weight and calorie intake. But I can no longer lift heavy, I can't keep up with 3 miles at the pace they want to run, and I feel either constantly tired or close to crying myself to sleep. Multiple times I had to stop myself from just randomly crying for no reason. I don't know whats wrong with me anymore. And to top it off, I feel like I haven't loss any weight. I still feel overweight no matter how much I eat and exercises. I know its not true because I can see the scale ticking down, but I can't help but hate my body.