i feel so self conscious and insecure when sitting down, i just hate how i look, from my looks, to my body, to the way i speak. i cant help but judge myself for every action that i do and i am extremely scared to hurt someones feelings, i apologise way too much for things i didnt even do wrong and i always say yes even when i feel like saying no. im a people pleaser and people use that as an advantage to use me, just because they know that im too weak to say no. i hate how fat i am and how i look so big compared to all of my friends, i always feel insecure sitting down or running because of my weight. i get this self conscious feeling where i feel aware of my body and i get scared to stand up in front of someone because i cant tell if they are judging me based of my looks. my face is purely disgusting. my eyebrows are really thick and dark and i have a horrendous side profile. my face looks so weird and strange and i have such bad features. i wish to be prettier. no i yearn for it.