I feel like since a young age I’ve struggled to have that “best friend” who is just your person who gets you. I wasn’t outcasted as a weirdo; I still had many friends. None of them were my best friends. Even when I claimed I did, there was always someone they enjoyed the company of more or that they were closer with. I posted one other time mentioning I’ve lost 4 best friends in the last 10 months and once again they always had someone closer. Boyfriends, siblings, and other friends. I feel like it’s really made me struggle with my confidence when it comes to making friends or getting into relationships. It’s like a little voice that tells me that they will never prioritize me or make me their person. I can make friends no problem, I just know it’ll never become more than just good friends or another person in I know. My only best friend I currently have feels like someone who is my person, but I know I don’t fit that #1 spot in her heart. It all kills me inside