I just wanna die. Fml. I feel like an utter joke. Atp I feel like most people irl would consider me a joke if they knew me. I don't know what is the right way to react to my own mental breakdown. I always felt like I was going to go crazy but at least I had a life and friendships back then. Where do you 'get a life'?? Terrified right now. Well every single day. Mountains of dread.