Why do I still replay his words in my head? And everytime I remember something new, it's like a tiny stab in the heart. What do I have to do to just get him out of my head. He was such a loser. He was such a loser that it made me pity him, even after all the horrible stuff. He lied about unnecessary things because he is deeply insecure, nobody trusts him or takes him seriously, he's a compulsive liar, he envies his younger brother, he fails in school, etc. None of these things even make me feel better, they just reveal him as such a sad, insecure person that must hate himself. It helps me to see that everything he said and did to me was such a projection, and he's truly at war with himself.