i got everything i asked for but it came in the strangest most distorted ways and im having a hard time accepting that nothing can unfold perfectly by itself and that i need to actually be willing to hold on to the things i care about by putting in the effort whether that be by simply changing the way i think about people or situations or making huge uncomfortable adjustments in my day to day ;( i can’t keep holding this invisible standard that’s impossible for myself or the people around me to live up to then get disappointed when that standard isn’t met despite it being invisible in the first place kajdhfkshjd but as long as i have the will to live i’ll have the will to change
daily life2 felt this