I feel as if i am never good enough, I Say the wrong things and it's not acceptable to others. I'm sorry im not perfect. But it's like walking on eggshells, like if I dare say something she doesn't like, I'm the bad guy. And it's the most basic shit. Like disagreeing about a video game, she always has to be right. And god she is such a hypocrit. Like I'm sorry I'm not you. FUCK. I wish she would just ghost me. She causes me so much anxiety. She doesn't respond to messages sometimes and i'm sitting there all day and night anxious. and then the next day comes and she acts like nothing happened. GOD forbid you ignore, sorry "didn't check my phone". She will resent you. She doesn't speak her feelings often, but I can feel the resentment. She messages me about her suffering, I shower her with love and appreaciation and she ignores it. Just reads it, nothing else. Then she tells me someone died, and I'm like sorry for your loss! Completely ignored. Always ignored. Like just ghost me.