i didnt pass my final high school exam which was my last straw, it was a few months ago, i totally stopped caring about myself, my mental health, i wanted to just destroy myself until i literally end up 6 feeth underground, im dealing with schisoaffective disorder so i take lots of meds and lots of them i know where are (my mom gives me them she doesnt trust me but still), i started stealing it, i couldnt stop i was desperate i didnt care if mom notices, i was hiii all the time i dont remember this period, i stopped and it got good for 2-3 months, but as my disorder works - depressions had to come, so here i am, stealing again to have energy to live, but it only makes me worse, im too tired to do anythin, sleepin 13~ h a day, i dont go to school or have any job i feel useless and like a burden to my family, im sure they think same, im desperate of human presence but i have no possibilities 4 that