I had never dated anyone in my life because I was always shy and too academically focused , my confidence was always low, since I didn't have any experience. After getting into uni I started panicking that I had never had a personal life. Out of nowhere I met someone and unexpectedly we had an insane chemistry. At first I thought that I will just compromise and date him just for the experience, but this guy was genuinely amazing. We could talk hours about everything, from abstract themes, our deepest fears to silly things. Without realising I fell for him, his mind was brilliant and he seemed a sweet, sensitive person, but I never actually was expressive or trusted him.We dated for a while but after some time he distanced himself and we stopped talking. I was devastated. After thinking I had healed I started dating another guy but it isn't the same. I can't live a life knowing I lost this kind of connection. I respect his decision, I just want him to be happy, whatever that means.