I wish I was someone's beat friend. I wish someone thought about me and missed me. I wish someone noticed when i isolated myself. I wish they would all care about me the same i did them. It feels like all i do is emotionally contribute to almost all my friendships. I can't keep this up, i dont have any energy for school work or out of school relationships. My parents are loosing hope, i can tell by the way they yell that they're just fed up with me. I hate everything and i feel almost completely empty, its like im 8 all over again... I just need something to end my suffering; i live off of distractions and i dont know if i can keep finding more and more ways to distract myself from everything.
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