idk, i dont know what im feeling everyday, i seem really happy but its just my brain trying to wipe out the noises of hatred and agony, i think everyone hates me, the only reason they are willing to talk to me is because of my smartness and all they would do is just exploit me off that, nothing else. my whole family is a mess as well, especially my dad, what a nuisance, it stresses me out to see him scold my mom for no reason, i pity her to marry that excuse of a boy, i really do. i feel like my best friend isn't my best friend anymore, i should just distance myself away from her, she deserves better friends than me, im just a pitiful excuse of a so called "bsf" and i truly wishes that she leaves me alone, not only her but my whole friend group. its painful having your only true friend leave you and your left with hypocritical homosapiens to deal with, i dont like thai at all. i dont wanna be stuck in this life, i wish i could just be free of worry and live happily ever after iykyk.