all my friends are rude and im not special to any of them and i just have to deal with it because nobody will listen or care because almost everyone else hates me or im too embarrassed to vent to them and im slowly getting worse and worse and nobody cares or takes it seriously which is my fault because i can never man up and just be sad about something out loud because im always avoiding issues and being annoying and i dont wanna cut or kill myself so i have no release of any energy its just a constant painful loop of feeling horrible and feeling amazing and i think im becoming insane and im afraid i just want to be me
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