I hate how I am always just an extra for anything. I have "friends" but I don't feel like I actually mean anything to them or that I'm important whatsoever. I know I'm always just the last option, if I'm even an option at all. I never get invited to things, people never talk to me or approach me, I am too shy to ask to hang out, because I know I will just get hurt and they won't come and go with someone else instead. This isn't just with friends, I feel like my partner prioritises and likes their friends more than me. I am apparently the best and most important to them, but they always just want to hang out with their friends, it's always just their friends and stuff. Whenever I bring it up, it's like "oh but I don't like my friends actually!! I don't want to hang out with them", but you literally hang out with them every single time. Why can't I just he important to someone. I feel so useless. I wish I was special. It really hurts so much.