im so sorry. i did so bad on exams might even fail a subject i'd NEVER fail. i lost my scholarship (disappointing parents and myself) i was and AM so frustrated. the thought of me having to calm myself down before each class so i won't hyperventilate about my bad grades tomorrow just made me ache so bad. i just want everything to be over. i just finished showering and did my skincare that makes my shirt drenched while my skin is still looking so so bad. i went to my room just to see i have glasses to wash (every single day for atleast 3 times) - why? the normal person wouldn't have to do this. i have to because i haev stupid fucking acne and its gnawing me inside. i can't do this anymore. i was so frustrated i sighed and my mum probably heard it - which made her sad. and now i feel worse at the fact that she feels sad before going to sleep because of my frustrations. i hate everything. now i value alone time so much because i just want to sit with my thoughts alone quietly. goodbye