School makes me want to kms. I spend 9+ hours a day studying and doing test just to have a horrible GPA. I try and try I work even on the weekends just to try to improve it but my teacher make me want to kill myself I hate them all and if I complain to my friend they just say “well at least you’re homeschooled” and my parents say I’m just not trying hard enough how am I supposed to try harder my social life has fallen apart I only talk to one person now. I can’t keep my room clean anymore I’m too busy doing school and trying to keep the house together while my parents fight about stupid shit all day. This is the first year ever that I haven’t cared about Halloween what is wrong with me I can’t take this much longer I already relapsed with smoking and drinking what’s next I start cutting again.