ive never been someone to vent, ever. i feel like im coming short in all regards to my life now adays. i am in a year long committed relationship that usually feels like my glue, but i just have this absolute irrational fear that she cant stand me anymore. she gets more critical of me each day, she doesnt call me on her breaks anymore, she has to "wind down" for more than 2 hours each day after work before calling me, and then she turns on a video or leaves again to get dinner, shower, go on a drive, call a friend, etc. i feel rediculously discarded but im scared to death to bring it up because its always me doing the consoling, its always me making sure that she is happy, comfortable, and feeling safe. i dont know what to do and as if that didnt suck enough, im starting to hate my career?! i have been a cellist for YEARS and i have always loved it, and now im 2 years into college and i hate it??