My dad is the fucking worst, i hate him, he makes me shake fucking scared when he's angry and he doesnt even care, he just acts like he's in the right all the fucking time, like im supposed to be perfect and the way he wants his kids to be, i hope he dies i cant simply live sane with him around. He acts like everything just goes back to normal after he's yelled or insulted me, demeaned me, like what the fuck am i supoosed to do?!? I cant be what he wants, needs, gets, im just so usless and a shit exsictance of a human being, i shoupldt have been born, i dont deserve to eat or drink, i should just rot like the parisite i am, i shouldnt have been born, maybe it'd be better if i killed myself. Maybe id be perfect then because i cant do anything wrong if im dead.