I'm so lonely. I've tried my best to ignore it, but lately, my feelings have been insistent on making themselves heard. Whenever I think about how it used to be, talking to my friends every evening, I feel tears in my eyes. Because just having an internal monologue to keep you company just drains you. I wish I had some friends now. People are already in their little friendship bubbles, leaving me out to watch. I've been told I'm smart, but that's all pointless when it comes to people. Sure, I'm socially awkward, but I can talk just as well as most people. How am I still alone? Maybe I'll be discovered by someone someday, but it's not going to happen anytime soon. I want to talk to someone who isn't my mother. I want to laugh with someone, not just fake smile at everything they say. I want to be me with someone, not just slap on a mask every time someone calls my name. Have a good day/night, dearest reader.