Genuinely so tired of living for other people I feel like I just wake up to exist, I do stuff to distract myself from the fact I'm just there eughh,, I've tried writing this shit out and I'm doing the same thing right now too,, don't know what to do with my feeling anymore, ive tried to drown it out by sleeping,, I've tried all my unhealthiest habits,, this 10ft hole in my chest just won't go away (´;︵;`) I know some people would say to reach out,, but I feel like it always ends up no where, I don't feel safe or close enough to rant to people who could actually help me, I really don't wanna bother my own friends because they're going through their own shit and even if I tried telling people they'll tell me the stuff I already know to improve.. i just don't see any point in telling someone all this when I already know what they're going to say..