"maybe you're having nightmares because you watch violent series, you should stop" omg can you stfu for one sec and listen to me I told you countless times I'm anxious about my future HELL I've even got a diagnosis, what MORE do you need ? It's always such a bitch to vent about school to people because they either will try to find a solution to my problems when I didn't ask for it and nothing could get me out of this without dropping everything, or they act like it's not a big deal at all, just a small passing thing like "it will pass" it's been years is it supposed to get better before or after I kill myself? I hate this system so so so much I hate how high people's expectations are for me, how nobody helps me in actually succeeding and then blames it on my laziness, I hate how it's always my fault no matter what and how I don't see myself anywhere in the future, so all I can answer when someone asks me about it (which is the only thing I'm ever asked about by some people) is idk.