I feel like everything in my life is just nothing but disappointment. I’m working and getting paid part time with full time hours at a job where all I get is criticized and told “i could be doing more or better” while carrying the work load of a host, server assistant, and a server/bartender sometimes. I’m there 6 days a week and while I also get told I do a good job, I feel unappreciated sometimes aside from a few coworkers. In the last year i’ve really tried putting myself out there and dating and though that I lost two best friends because they got involved with someone who broke me and ruined my self worth in relationships. Even before then I’ve never had a healthy relationship. I’ve been cheated on, lead on, ghosted and taken advantage of. I’m only 18 so there’s still some hope but it’s hard to feel it. in the last year i’ve lost 4 close friends and have had nobody fight for our friendship. My only social life is one friend and my coworkers. Idk what to do. I feel so hopeless