Thank you for your reply...Unfortunately it is a highly regulated treatment called Spravato (Esketamine) and regular doctors and hospitals do not carry it and are not authorized to give it out. Its an isotope of ketamine in a nasal spray form. I am going to have to start seeking it out from the street or resorting to other drugs, if they want me to be a good little boy and stay in therapy and not kill myself that is. I thought it would help. They basically just formed a new addiction for me instead. I want to sue them. I bet other people in the clinic and across the USA would join a class action lawsuit of providing a new drug and then cutting off said drug in the middle of treatment, taking away medication that is preventing someone's suicidal thoughts and flashbacks. I wish there were any other option. I was already gonna do coke with this guy anyway. I have AuDHD and simply wont function without being "high" in some way or another .