I have an issue with one of my classmates, she treated me very badly in the past, embarrassed me publicly, and excluded me from the group, and she's asking ppl to forgive her, but I really can't, even tho she's nice now, but I genuinely can't forgive her, I feel like I'm a bad person for not forgiving her, but I still feel like she secretly hates me and I can't feel otherwise. I also wish I had friends who loved me, friends that I wouldn't have to question if they hate me or not, I wish I was able to gain friends without having to be extremely beneficial to them, I'm always trying so hard just for girls to not assume I'm a mean girl cuz they said that was their first impression of me, and they treated me very bad and they assumed all guys liked me, which isn't true, and their hate was reinforced even more when I started getting high grades and all teachers recognized me for that. I really tried so hard and I can't anymore, I just wish they can love me.