I cant do this anymore, Im tired of constantly being misgendered, even after i correct them, im tired of being harassed, i dont care what my mom thinks anymore, if she beats me up, okay thats fine, screams at me, fine, ignore me, fine, thinks im fine when im really not, okay. I DONT CARE ANYMORE, someone please kill me or ill do it myself, im so fed up with everyones bullshit, im trying to care about myself for once and its hurting me, i care for others, it hurts me. And I finally got a good therapist, welp not anymore, he got fucking fired, thats the 2nd one this year, less than 10 meetings for both of them and now I dont even have a fucking therapist, my friends are drifting away, my life is falling apart and everyone expects me to be perfectly fine. So i keep the lie up until I meet my grave, im not making it to 14 years old, might not even finish 2026 to be honest