fuck this shit its like everyshit is already planned every medals alr belong to someone and that some one is never me and i get the fact that im not as hardworking as them or as anyone but sometimes its so fucking not comforting to know that it'll never be me on the list or on the podium bcz this shit is def rigged every body knows everybody everybody have the exact same teacher and shit and its like tf? whatever i do is not gonna matter cus in the end i alr know whos gonna get my dream its like why im i even trying whats the point i alr know the result its always going to be like this and i just really wish there was some kind of miracle and shit but i just know that there isnt