I feel hollow. I know there is so much I can be doing. I know I have a brain that I should be using. I don’t. It’s like I’m so drained from doing nothing. All I do is daydream about what I want, all these fantasy for my future, my future with someone. But my life isn’t really theirs. They don’t seem to want it to be. It makes it feel like what I want isn’t possible anymore. Everything in my life is the opposite of how I see things could be; can be. I’m so isolated, it hurts to talk to people. To exist outside of my head. But my head is so empty. I started smoking again, vaping ig. I’m not stressed anymore. I’m not whole anymore either. It’s all missing. All. Idk. I’m a nobody in a rural area. I’ve never done anything with my life. I sit in my room or work at a factory with people 3x my age. Am I just supposed to be another redneck. Some guy into football and beer. I feel useless. I am useless, it’s just the truth. I want to go to college for sociology. What kind of dream is that.