an online friend of mine just deleted every interaction we had together in like social media, i reaally appreciate him as a friend, we had so many deep conversations and i genuinely felt like i made a connection. but around a month ago he started being every day more distant, and i just noticed what i mentioned before and its like one more thing into the pile of shit that happens to me, why did both of my dogs have to die, why did my friend that even knew my mom do that, why do i have panic attacks i hate my life so much but i fear death even more, but theres nothing else to this genuinely. there is no fucking point, its even worse when youre stuck in the middle because dying would fix this, but the idea is what makes me panic
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