I fucking hate my friend, and no I don't feel proud of that not even a little, I like my friend but sometimes I feel a deep hatred for her, She seems to fit so easily and I do not, she feels like a lamb and I feels like a monster, Also I was Sexually assaulted by my Younger cousin who is a boy, Some years before and when I resisted he acted like a fucking spoiled shit and kept pretending that I didn't want to sit next to him for no reason because I didn't like him,like who the hell are you saying? You touched me for days and says things like that as if i am the one wrong? I' sorry but somethimes i just wanted to K#ll him