Why does it bother me so much? Why does it bother me when they call me names and say terrible things to me? It doesn’t define who I am…? Right? Heheh, actually it does because I already thought those things about myself to begin with. And they are just confirming my self hatred. Well maybe I really am all those terrible things but why don’t I fix them?? You idiot just fix them? Get better? Skill issue! Stupidity! Why can’t you just not make those mistakes? Just get better at life! Just be more normal! Just be less obnoxious! Even though you have no idea what “obnoxious” looks like to them because everyone finds different things annoying and they never actually told you what you are doing wrong specifically even though you asked. Like, seriously, what is wrong with you? Why can’t you just improve and be perfect now? I know you are capable!! I know I’m capable!! Just fucking do it you stupid piece of hellshit damn it you fool freak idiot I fucking hate myself. Oh well…