Rant #29799

I don't think I can genuinely be more pathetic if I tried. I can not, for the life of me, stand up for myself you can literally insult me all u want u won't hear me say a word. I just shut down- it's like I'd rather keep the now very tainted peace than speak up and then once our relationship rebuilds to a stable point you'll get mad at me all over again and I'll just take in all the hate just to hate myself for the both of us in the end.